I’m so exhausted that I can feel my teeth and jaws aching. I don’t know if that’s a thing, but that’s how I’m currently feeling. I can feel fatigue radiating inside my skull behind my eyes. I think it’s a combination of this flu with the very, very long week of work and whatnot. I’m going to keep this log short and sweet so that I can head to bed.
I think I need to take some time tomorrow to sit down and really ask myself what I want. I’m off from school and from work tomorrow so I’m just going to rest, relax and unwind.
Also, another thing – tomorrow marks a month of being broken up with Nick, and I think I’m going to message him. I’m so tired of asking people for their opinions on whether people can stay friends after they break up, and blah, blah. I’m just going to go with my gut, and see what happens. If it’s too hard, then I’ll just be honest with myself and with him and we’ll go back to space and silence. I’m just tired of this iffy back and forth “what if’s” – life’s too short for this.
I want him in my life, in some form or way. I got to try somehow, eventually. At this point, I don’t think I have much else to lose anyways. So, we’ll see how it goes. No more making a big deal out of this.
Oh, last but not least! I watched a movie by myself in theatres today, for the first time ever! I laughed, I cried, and it was actually such a nice experience. I actually quite enjoyed my own company very much. It was a lot of fun, and I would do it again, for sure. I’m glad to be knocking so many things off of my bucket list. Okay I’m so tired, I’m going to go to bed. Hopefully tomorrow I feel better after a nice long sleep.