Day 80 – March 21st, 2017

Hi there! So I’m currently in bed, and I know I said I would continue writing about this past weekend in this log, but.. SO MUCH HAPPENED TODAY!!! I have to write it down, I just have to.

Okay so, I got ready for work and headed in. And Dylan wasn’t there just yet, but I did find out that he was nights like me (yay!). And just, this entire day was just… so, so, so good. From start to finish.

As soon as he came in, and when he saw me, he came over to give me a hug and it was such a nice hug. He pulled back a bit enough to ask me something about my thumb (I burnt it) but still had his arm around me, sigh.

We started talking, as per usual, and I found out that tomorrow he’s going to see a concert for one of his favourite bands, Kaleo… who’s opening for THE LUMINEERS. Here’s the crazy thing though – just this past weekend, like right before we went to Ezra street – Rose, Olivia, Alycia and I were talking about how we’d all love to go to a Lumineer’s concert. And, I’ve been listening to them non-stop this past week, AND singing “Angela” repeatedly, AND I was listening to them on the way to work JUST BEFORE THAT SHIFT. Like I said, I don’t believe in coincidences anymore – it’s just the universe working its mojo. What are the odds that one of my only favourite bands AND his favourite band are performing together??

I told him he was so lucky and I was so jealous because I LOVED the Lumineers. He said that he didn’t listen too much to them, so I recommended some songs he should listen too. He said if tickets were still available, that I should definitely try to get someone to go with me. In all honesty, I didn’t have much hope for them, but the thought was nice. He said he wished he had told me sooner, he had bought them about a month and a half ago.

We spent the rest of our shift just talking about everything and anything as per usual – but today, things got a little bit more personal. Today, we finally talked about our past relationships.

I told him about Don and Nick, how long those relationships were, what happened in each. But it was what he told me that blew me away. His longest relationship was a year, and there was one girl in particular who fucked him up pretty hard because… she cheated on him. Twice.

I can’t believe that we’ve both been cheated on. What is it with bad things happened to good people? Is it something we have to go through as a test of character? I honestly wonder sometimes.

Anyways, where he was kind of vague about it, I went into detail. But, I’m happy he told me as much as he has because everything makes sense now – after everything he’s been through, of course it’s going to take him awhile to open up to and trust ANYONE. I don’t blame him, and honestly I’m honoured that he’s told me as much as he has as it is.

He’s just such a genuinely good guy, from what I’ve gathered so far. I’m sad that that happened to him, and I’m sad that it still seems to be with him. I hope one day his heart truly heals, in some way. No one deserves to hold onto anger, have it turn inwards. And he deserves to be happy, truly.

After that, we just spent the rest of our shift just talking whenever we could. Sometimes with Luna and Sera, but mostly on our own. Luna told me that it’s starting to get a little obvious now, how often we talk to one another.

Luna’s so impatient! She’s wondering what’s holding him back, but I get it now. And honestly, I prefer this friendship and getting to know one another first. It’s warm and cozy. I’m not quite ready to throw myself into the flames yet, nor do I even know if there are going to be any.

But, I also get that the universe is somehow trying to tell me that it’s going to be okay, and that I don’t have to hold back or be afraid. Whatever happens is exactly how it’s meant to happen. “It is written”.

Anyways, he left after a while, and told me to let him know if I found tickets before giving me a hug. I wasn’t too hopeful though, so I told him to Snapchat me and to have lots of fun.

After that, Luna and I went for pho, but then Diana called me back because there was a huge, huge sale and she wasn’t exaggerating – it came up to almost $2000 dollars. I can’t believe it!!! AND I opened an IC too. Can you say best day ever? It gets better though because…

When I got home to tell Olivia about my day, I told her about all the crazy signs and omens about the concert and well… WE BOOKED TIX TO GO BECAUSE BY SOME MIRACLE, SOME WERE AVAILABLE!!!!!

I’m so excited! I love, love that Cleopatra album. It’s going to be such an amazing experience!! And, Dylan said he’d give Olivia and I a ride up too. So nice! Tomorrow should be fun.

Okay yes, I’m glad he’s going but it’s not like we’re seeing it together. What I’m trying to say is, I’m not solely going just because he is – I’m actually genuinely excited to see The Lumineers! It’s so strange how we were all just talking about it too. The world really does work in mysterious ways.

Anyways, it’s getting late and I should get some shut-eye. I’ll try to find some time to write tomorrow, but I doubt I will, so if anything I’ll write on Thursday about everything! Until then,

Love,

Me.

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