Day 129, 130, 131 – May 9th, 10th, & 11th, 2017

I have no idea why, but it feels like these past couple days were so much longer than they actually were. Like, it’s only Thursday, and I haven’t written since Monday, but it feels like so much longer! Such a strange feeling. Okay, so what have I missed?


Maria’s mom’s viewing came and went. It was very somber, but Maria seemed very composed and collected. She’ll be back to work by tomorrow, so I shall be seeing her on Saturday. I hope she’s happy with the numbers we’ve managed to pull while she was gone.

I worked a lot, and the shifts were good, they went by quickly. Oh, I got my schedule for my second job for next week! Safe to say, next week is probably going to be one of the busiest weeks of my life, LOL. I got 4 shifts at this new job, some back to back, and 4 at the other. Some days, I go straight from one to the other. I’m not nervous though. I’m excited. I can’t wait to start and to test my capacities. And even if I don’t make it, at least I will have tried. I’m not backing down until I know for sure it’s not meant to be. But until then? Bring it!

I went to meet Leila for dinner yesterday (Wednesday), since she recently came back from her Dominican trip! We went for all you can eat sushi, which was delicious. It was so nice to catch up and hang out! She had a really good time and seemed super happy and relaxed, which made me happy. We caught up on everything we missed, and she told me about the details of her trip, and we ate and ate until we couldn’t eat anymore, LOL. She brought me back a shot glass and magnet to add to my collections! I love how well she knows me, hehe. After that, we walked back to her house to hang out with her family, watch Harry Potter and drink wine, which is our go-to tradition (which I love).

Which leads me to today! I slept over last night, so this morning we had breakfast and chilled some more, and then after a while we got ready and headed our different ways. It was a lot of fun! I caught myself thinking on the bus back home, that if I had to live anywhere but Toronto, I totally wouldn’t mind living in Scarborough. There’s so much to do (and eat!).

That’s about everything that I missed writing about these past couple days, I believe.

I was reading through some of my older logs from April and the beginning of May as I organized them, and man. If I’m going to be honest with myself, like directly honest. I wrote about Dylan A LOT. Like, a lot, LOL. I never realized how much he was on my mind, until I saw it reflected back at me in my logs.

I’m not saying it in a bad way at all – for the most part, I merely organized my thoughts and feelings the best I could, while doing my best to maintain a sense of practicality and realism about it. It’s just, something that stood out to me, is all.

I’ll most likely be seeing him day after tomorrow, since that’s when he said he’d be back.

I’m slowly trying to lower my expectations as to how it’s going to go. I know, it’s in an effort to protect myself. I get caught up in my head and self-imposed fears way too often. But, I don’t think there’s anything wrong with trying to protect myself from disappointment. I would rather that, than set myself up to BE disappointed, if that makes sense. So, we’ll see how it goes.

According to Marilyn’s demo schedule (which I did sneak a peek at), he’ll be in every weekend for the rest of May. Which is really nice! More opportunities to just talk and see where things go, no rush.


I’m off today from work, and again tomorrow, which I’m really glad about. It’s a well-deserved break. I’m going to finish my smart serve tomorrow, make my smoothie and work out, so for sure it’ll be a productive day. Oh and! Lianna is coming over to dye my hair and my mom’s (a mother’s day gift to my mom on my behalf, so that’ll be nice).

I think I’m going to go take a nice hot bath now. It’s been a while! Got to get some self-love pampering in, once in a while, you know.

I’ll write some time tomorrow!



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