Day 218 + 219 – August 6th & 7th, 2017

Hello! I’m home, after a fantastic day/night at Leila’s! Holy crap, we had so, so much fun. We legit got through two bottles of wine (impressive, I know), and we went to get some Chinese take-out which was ridiculously delicious, and then we spent the evening just talking and singing karaoke and reminiscing about the good old days when everyone was still friends. We had such good conversations and I’m so glad that we vibe so well together! We just, click. And I’m so glad that we do.

So I got home today in the afternoon (it’s late in the evening now), and I treated myself to a nice Lush bubble bath to unwind, and now I’m just re-watching some Gossip Girl to make my heart happy LOL. It looks like it’s going to be yet another good week coming up – I work mostly at my regular job, and then Friday I have a bridal shower party to go to so I’m excited to get all dressed up. And I think this Thursday I’ll be hanging out with the FCL squad, so that should be fun.

I’m especially looking forward to the week after because I think Dylan and I will be going to see a movie together, hehe. Well, I know I’m saying “I think” because it’s not like 100% confirmed per se, but on the brighter side I did what I intended to do and I went into the department to ask him in person.

Basically, the shift we had together on the Saturday, I so badly wanted to ask him if he wanted to do something this week, but there were so many people around and I ended up chickening out. So as I wrote in my last log, I stopped by the department before I went to the GO bus station, as planned. I wasn’t sure if he’d be on break, but I had faith that whatever was meant to happen, would.

And he was there! I casually passed by and was like, “hey!” (Also, I may or may not have put a little extra effort into my appearance for this so-called “chance encounter”, LMAO). Anyways, he actually looked really happy to see me! Honestly, his smile gives me butterflies, it’s just… perfect.

But of course, as soon as everyone else saw I had stopped by, they started approaching to also say hello, so I ended up explaining to everyone that I was on my way to the GO bus terminal to go hang out with my best friend and that I was off and was looking forward to enjoying my day. I wanted to ask him about the movie, but once again, everyone was hovering around!!! So I made up an excuse and said that I should go talk to Maria about “numbers” from the day before, LOL.

I went into the department, and talked to Maria for a little bit, waiting until everyone dispersed throughout the department again and until I saw he was on his own. Once I saw that he’d walked away from everyone, I bid Maria adieu and started making my way out, in his direction. When he saw that I was leaving, he came over to give me a hug goodbye and I knew that was going to be my only chance.

So I was like, “you’re probably going to be pretty busy this week with training for your tournament coming up right?” And he nodded his head yes, looking a little apprehensive at the prospect of it. And then I was like, “Oh okay! Because, I was thinking… of asking you… to go see Planet of the Apes… with me.”

LMFAO. I added all the pauses there because that’s literally exactly how I asked – stammering, nervous and slightly struggling to get the words out.

But he lit up, and he was like, “I’m so down!”

PHEW. And I in turn was like, “really?!” (LOL). Anyways, he said he wanted to, but next week, and that he’d text me and let me know when he was free.

He seemed pretty happy, so I’m glad that I went through with it.

I’m feeling a lot better about the whole patience thing. I’m in no rush, and I don’t want him to feel pressured in any way whatsoever. I want this, whatever it could be, to be different, and to reflect how far I’ve come within this year and all the ways I’ve changed.

Like, during our shift together on Saturday, he apologized for not texting back because he’d knocked out, but in all honesty, I really don’t mind at all. To be honest, I’m not very good at keeping up with our texting conversations so it doesn’t bother me at all that we don’t text often. I much prefer our in-person interactions as a whole. But the old me, a year ago? The slow replies or lack of reply at all would have had me reeling. But that’s not me anymore.

I like this space, and even though I was rather frustrated earlier, I’m actually beginning to enjoy this pace as well. Good things take time, and this has the potential to be amazing – that’s what I feel deep down. He’s worth the wait. I just hope that he’ll feel the same.

Anyways, I’m excited for this next date! I’m hoping this time around I’ll gather some courage once more (because apparently I seem to have a lot of it lately), and I can get the opportunity to like, kiss him on the cheek at least. I hope that’s not too forward! I just, like I said a lot of stuff in that message I sent him but I feel like I haven’t really been acting on it, you know? I want to be more flirty but like, I don’t really know where to start LOL. Oh well! With time, I’m hoping we’ll become more comfortable with one another. We’ve known each other for a while and we’ve talked a lot during all of our shifts together throughout the duration of this year but things are little different now.

I’m looking forward to so much!!! I’m so glad that I’ve been working alongside the universe to make my life exactly how I want it to be. Things are good. They will continue to get better. I’ve got a good feeling about pretty much everything.

I’ve got a long day tomorrow, as I will be working at both jobs, but I hope I’ll get a chance to write in the evening after my night shift! Until then,

Love always and all around,

Me.

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