Day 225 + 226 – August 13th & 14th

Hello there! So it’s currently Monday night and I just got home from a night shift and it was so freaking awesome – everyone I love working with best was in! Luna, Daniella, even Lianna and Diego were back from vacation so it was a nice little reunion. I’m honestly so glad that we all have so much love for one another and have become a little family. I’ve learnt so much from each and every one of them, truly.

Anyways, I’ve got to back track to yesterday before I can talk about today! Yesterday was Sunday, and I had the day off, and I spent it with Anne, which was really nice. We honestly vibe so well together, like we’ve gotten so close over the course of this summer since we’ve both happened to become so self-aware and conscientious. She’s really helped to promote my own personal growth, with her tips on meditation and her overall positive attitude and supportive nature. I’m so glad that we’ve gotten so close because our conversations are so insightful and motivating!

It was a much needed day off and I’m glad that I had it. Which leads me to today! I had a super productive morning – I worked out, then I cooked some lunch for myself, then I did all of my laundry, and then I headed off to work. And like I said earlier, it was a really good shift because my favourite people were in.

Luna and I are so, so excited for our Cayman Islands trip. I can’t believe we’re travelling together yet again! And to one of the best beaches in the entire world. Holy crap man, what an adventure this year has been so far.

Tomorrow, all the work girls are getting together at Diane’s house to celebrate Marilyn’s birthday and I can’t wait to see everyone again! It’s going to be me, Luna, Daniella, Lianna, Marilyn, Sera, Diane, Maria, and Bridget, which means there’s plenty of fun and laughter to be had, for sure. And we’re all sleeping over too! I love these ladies with all my heart, I honestly do.

I especially can’t wait to see Sera! I’ve really missed her, but I’m so glad that she’s been keeping so well and enjoying her summer away from work. I’m so curious as to whether or not she’ll bring up my confessing my feelings to Dylan, but I’m not going to say anything about it and let her bring it up first, if anything. I doubt she will though! She’s a great mom and I know she doesn’t really want to get involved per se, but rather let things happen as they do.

Speaking of Dylan – so I texted today, and we finalized our movie plans for this week! We’re going to be seeing The Dark Tower, Thursday evening. I’m excited! I don’t think I’ll be as nervous for this, as I was for our first date. Movies are fun and chill.

However. I have this plan. That like, I keep day-dreaming about, and visualizing in my head.

Basically – my parents are going to be leaving to the cottage this Thursday, early afternoon. So I was thinking… of inviting Dylan over after the movie.

And like, I’d go about it super casually; after the movie, I’d ask if he has any plans for the rest of the night. And if he said he didn’t, I’d ask him if he wanted to come over and chill for a bit, since I was planning on cooking for myself and having a glass of wine on my own anyways.

I know that this is kind of a risky plan. Chances are, he may think I’m being too forward or that it’s too soon, and politely decline.

But honestly?

The real reason I want him to come over is so that we can actually talk. Like, privately, away from the world and people. I want to create a situation in which he’d hopefully feel more comfortable about telling me more about him, somewhere quiet, like my home. I just want to be able to take advantage of an opportunity like this one.

I’m not saying I’m planning on jumping his bones the minute he walks through my door (as much as I would really, really like to). But, I’m definitely interested in a different kind of vulnerability than just pure physical intimacy. We said we wanted to get to know one another better, and I really think that this could be a perfect moment to do so… if he’s down for it.

So, we’ll see. A lot of this plan relies on my not backing down from it, and being chicken. But, I’m pretty determined. The worst thing he can do is say no, and really, that’s not so bad. All that means is that it wasn’t meant to happen, and that’s totally okay. I’m perfectly happy just being able to watch a movie with him, even.

I want this so badly though, I really do. We’ll see what’s meant to occur.

Anyways, that’s about all for today! Oh universe, I hope you’re with me on this one.

I definitely won’t get the chance to write tomorrow, so I’ll write when I get home on Wednesday. Until then!

Love, love, love,

Me.

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