I’m currently thousands of miles up in the air, homewards bound after a fantastic week full of sun, sand and warm tropical waters.
For once, it doesn’t feel like time flew by because I made a point of being present in as many moments as I could while I was in them. And man, what an amazing week it turned out to be.
On our last morning today, we said goodbye to all of our new friends. Chubby wished us well and said we’d always have a friend in Antigua through him, Ms. Roberts gave us an amazing authentic Caribbean-style goodbye breakfast, and our lovely neighbour Katharine added us all on Facebook as to keep in touch as time goes on.
It was truly amazing. Taking the bus and meeting locals, going to every side of the island, beach hopping and exploring and adventuring we much as we could. I soaked up so much sun that I feel like it’s still living beneath my skin, warming me to my core.
And so our trip ends. Now, we go back to life as we’ve always known it to be. Back to our routines. But, I’m excited; I can’t wait to start implementing my new resolutions of eating healthier and being more physically active. I miss yoga and Oshawa, I miss working out, I miss keeping track of everything through my agenda. I even miss work! LOL. Or maybe more so the people from work.
It’ll be nice to get back into things, full swing. Especially school. And seeing Nadia! I can’t wait to see her, I have an appointment next week.
And I definitely want to see my friends too, and hang out with them.
So, I have a lot to look forward to once I get back.
Speaking of friends, Dylan messaged and said we should get together next weekend so he could hear about my trip, which was nice. I honestly didn’t think the whole friendship thing would actually pan out (and low key I’m still expecting that to remain a friendly suggestion and nothing but that).
^ okay no, that’s not entirely true. Being honest with myself, I’m actually really glad that we’re friends. It genuinely feels like we are, like we kept in touch throughout my trip here and there. With each day that passes, my feelings dissipate more and more and I’m glad. I know that the universe is obviously intending for me to learn more on my own, and I’m perfectly happy with going along with that.
I feel like I still have so much more to learn about myself. Last year was such an incredible year in regards to my personal growth and introspection. But I still feel like I have ways to go, and so much more to learn. Like I really want to start cultivating and implementing everything I’ve learnt.
I suppose a part of me is worried that I can’t or won’t be able to. Like, be mindful, and aware. I don’t want this consciousness to be a “phase” in my life, I want it to stay and grow throughout the duration of the rest of my life.
I guess that’ll stem from the habits I intend to maintain in my life! Like meditation, yoga, the books I read. But it also has to come from within me too – such as, being present, aware, mindful. Pausing to step back from situations instead of being completely involved in the narrative and reacting based off of my ego-self. Those are the things I would like to cultivate into habits as well.
So I will! I’ll strive to. Change has to start somewhere right? It all begins with the desire to do differently.
Anyways, that’s about all for today! So funny to think that tomorrow, I go back to work. I really am excited.
I am truly thankful, blessed and eternally grateful that I get to experience the things that I do. To travel to the places I have. To meet all the people I’ve met, to learn their stories and learn from them.
Thank you, Universe.
And thank you, me. I love you! I can’t wait to see where we’ll end up next.