I said I would write every day and even though I am currently tucked into bed and sleepy as heck, I meant it. I’m going to do this. I just finished meditating and by this week, I’ll be getting back into my running. I meant what I said about this month!
Anyways, I do want to get to bed but before I do. I am… so insanely ridiculously happy, I can’t even begin to express it. And I am grateful, so grateful.
Also… I think I might be falling for Adrian a lot harder than I realized.
Which is scary to acknowledge, but liberating too I suppose.
No one has ever looked at me the way he has. No one has ever made me feel as beautiful. When I’m with him, my heart sings. I’m content, I’m at peace. It’s a stillness that I can’t describe.
And when I want him, nothing can stop me. The passion we have for one another… it’s unlike anything I’ve experienced. I can feel every nerve-ending in my body, especially when he’s kissing every inch of me. It’s… palpable. It’s magnetic. I can’t ever get enough, and he feels the same way.
And in those quiet moments where he’s holding me close, I can feel the smile on his face without even having to look at him.
I’ve got to write about last night and today in detail for sure (mental notes: the jokes that made me die of laughter, “the biscuit gremlin”, the amazing connecting conversations, how he came to visit me at work today and met everyone one by one!)
But for now, I just wanted to express that. As scary as it is to be falling for someone this deeply, I don’t want to forget how beautiful this experience has been so far. I trust this process. No matter the outcome, I have nothing to fear. I deserve this. I deserve to be cared for like this, to be seen the way he sees me. I deserve the endless kisses, the laughter, the amazing conversations, and the simple happiness of being held by someone.
Anyways, I’ll be off for the entire week after tomorrow so I’m sure I’ll definitely have a moment to write more in depth! For now, this shall suffice.
Until next time!