Hello!!! Here I am for the third time this year, up thousands of miles up in the air over the sea, barrelling towards England! I can’t believe the trip is here, that we’re on it and it’s happening! It’s amazing how quickly time has flown.
I haven’t really banged out a plan for England but I did plan a magnificent trip for Paris – we’re going to see the Eiffel Tower, the Palace of Versailles, the Louvre AND we’re going to take a lovely boat cruise down the Seine river. AHHHHHHHHHH!
I’m actually quite proud of myself for my organizational skills when it comes to travelling. As much as I do love to be spontaneous and adventure, when the time calls for it I’m also good at budgeting time and figuring out where I’d like to go and what I want to see. Ah, how I love travelling so much with all my heart and soul. Truly, this is what I want for my life.
I’m so excited!!!! I can’t wait to try all the amazing food, experience the cultures, adventure around to my heart’s content and just have an amazing and safe time. It’s going to be amazing.
I’ll do my best to write everyday, hopefully at the end of each in order to record what’s happened and what I did!
Anyways, before I end this off I wanted to talk about last night, the night before I left.
Adrian and I had plans to go to a Blue Jays game originally, but because of the amount of rain and potential flooding of the subway station we had to go to, he decided to make a back-up plan and oh, what a back-up plan it was.
He invited me over, and just as he’d promised a while ago, made dinner for me from scratch. He’s so sweet – once he picked me up, he immediately told me I looked immaculate, and that he was going to miss me.
He made my favourite food in the whole world – spaghetti and meatballs! The sauce was made from the freshest tomatoes, the authentic homemade Italian way that his family makes it year after year and seals for time to come. And the meatballs he made from scratch too, by hand. He also made a delicious egg frittata too.
Everything was beyond delicious. When he said he could cook, he definitely wasn’t exaggerating – the guy can cook. I was over the moon, and absolutely astounded at my sheer luck of having met such an incredible human being.
Later on when we were spending some time together, we ended up talking about my trip and I remembered that he hadn’t told me what exactly he’d wanted from England. So I was like “you said you wanted tea right?”
And listen. I’m like 99% sure I heard him right, because he did say it more than once. But even still, I didn’t say anything because I was pretty much holding my breath, because it felt too good to be true.
He agreed, but then he was like, “tea… or love?”
LOVE. Love! I’m pretty sure that that’s what he said, but oh goodness. Did he mean it? My heart immediately skipped a million beats and all I could do was stare (ONCE AGAIN OMG – this is the whole “I like you a lot” moment all over again!!!!! WHAT IS WITH ME).
He eventually changed the topic, but ah man. I should have said something, maybe? Again, everything happens as it’s meant to.
But later, another thing happened that made me so incredibly happy that I quite literally did a happy dance once I got home.
He was telling me how sleepy I looked and I admitted that I had been so excited for this trip, that I hadn’t been able to sleep well for the past couple days at all. And he was like, “awwww, baaaabe.”
BABE!!!!!!!! HE CALLED ME BABE!!!!!!
Yes, this may seem like a little thing – but it’s not to me. This is the first time he’s said it to me in that kind of way or in that context and it makes me so, so, so, so happy.
Yesterday was the first time those 3 little words actually popped into my head and nearly off of my tongue. At the cottage in Georgian Bay, was the moment I kind of knew. But last night was the first time the impulse to actually say it out loud to him actually came to me. But I held back, because I know I’ll know when the exact right moment is.
I can’t even begin to express how completely at peace and content I am, when it comes to this. Because I spent so much time investing in myself, getting to know me and who I am and what that entails, I’m self-aware to the extent that it’s easy for me to discern how I feel and act consciously about it rather than just letting my emotions get the best of me. It’s not always easy, but now I can tell when I’m doing my best or when I’m allowing old thinking and feeling patterns to get the best of me.
I think that self-awareness, self-love and introspection completely changes the way you relate to other people, especially when it comes to love. I think when it’s right, you know deep down to the core of your being that it’s right, regardless of time frames or how other people may perceive the state or speed of your relationship.
And this… this has felt right from the start. It’s been effortless, honestly. Easy, and things always work out for the best for us, no matter what we may be doing or where we are.
So, I’m excited. I’m so excited to get to know him further, to see how he grows, to see how our relationship with one another grows in all the ways that it will. No matter what happens, I’m so incredibly grateful and thankful that I got to experience something like this – healthy, happy, wholesome, conscious and just… more than I could have thought possible.
This life is so incredibly beautiful. I’m thankful that my love for life spills over into every aspect that it is comprised of.
So here’s to those late nights wandering around different countries, here’s to adventuring to your heart’s content, here’s to laughter and light and spontaneity, here’s to discovering all that this beautiful Earth has to offer, and here’s to being in love with it all, openly, freely and without condition or time.