Well hello there! I haven’t written in about a week and I mean I suppose it’s been busy but I can’t quite recall why now. Oh well!
In fact, this week is looking to be a lot more busy than last week was – but I’m getting ahead of myself.
So, October came to a close last week and it truly was one of the best months of this year. I went apple picking with Adrian that last Sunday and we spent the whole day together, my classes were good, and I ended up getting to be what I originally wanted to be, on Halloween day. All in all, it was an amazing month and I can’t believe I’m already four days into November.
Last week when Adrian and I did spend time with one another, I told him what I wrote in my last log – how that first date he and I had was part of the reason my gut was yelling at me not to go back to Belize.
He kind of just looked at me for a moment before saying he was sorry that I didn’t go (but I assured him I would, eventually, when I was meant to) and then mentioned how powerful that particular bit of information was. It was a nice moment, the closest I’ve gotten really to telling him how much he means to me and how certain I’ve been about this from the start. I’m glad that I can find little ways to convey this.
We spent some time with each other again last night, and today is probably the first time I’ve experienced… this. This strange feeling that I can’t quite describe. I think it may be like… restlessness? Or more so, impatience.
As present as I am when I’m with him, as happy and content as I am, I also feel like I’m holding back. I just want to be able to tell him how I feel! I know I have to be patient and trust the process, and know that the right moment will show itself. It’s just hard sometimes, when all I want to do is just blurt it all out and say how I feel. Sigh.
It’s okay though. Everything has something to teach, and this is just another one of those things. I’m going with my intuition on this, because in the past two years of my life it hasn’t failed me once. I just have to keep reminding myself to have faith. Have faith and trust this process the way I’ve trusted in everything else in my life.
Anyways, what else happened last week! Let’s see – I went out and about on Halloween night dressed as the super-hero Storm from X-men which was super duper fun. I even went to my lecture that way (and shocked the prof for a moment, LMAO). I’m so glad that I got the opportunity to pay tribute to my great love for Halloween.
Later on in the week, Adrian, Leila, Cory and I were supposed to go on a double date for some ramen, but Adrian couldn’t make it so the three of us went anyways, and I’m glad we did! I actually thoroughly enjoy hanging out with Leila and Cory – they’re such good vibes and they’re so freaking cute, legit my goals. They’re fun to hang out with and both very easy to talk to, so we ended up having a really good night.
I worked through the weekend, and here I am now at home, typing away this log.
This week is going to be hectic – I’ve got the Fleetwood Mac concert tomorrow with Olivia, an exam on Wednesday, work all through the weekend and massive work event on Friday to cap it off. Not to mention, another exam next Tuesday so amidst my work shifts, I’m going to have to find time to study. I’m not worried at all though, everything happens as it’s meant to.
Olivia and I went back to the gym yesterday (and this was after a long while, for me) and I felt amazing through my entire day. I’m making it my intent to go as often as I can, at least 3 times a week until I can make it more frequent. I forget, time and time again, how good it feels to do that for my body. In fact, I’m hoping I can get up early enough tomorrow in order to go for an hour or so before I get to some serious studying.
It’s going to be a good week, and yet another busy month I’m sure! Krystal, Emily, Rose, Lori, Adrian and many other people I know all have their birthdays this month, I have my work holiday party to look forward to, and soon enough we’ll be smack-dab in the midst of our holiday season when it comes to work, and I also have to do my best to keep up with studying where I can and how I can.
It’s all good though! I got this. I’m determined and I’m motivated.
Anyways, that’s all for today. I’m just going to chill out for a bit before I head to bed because I’m sure I’m going to need all the rest I can get for this upcoming week.
Until next time!