Day 327 to 331 – November 23rd to November 27th, 2018

HE ASKED ME TO BE HIS GIRLFRIEND! HE ASKED ME TO BE HIS GIRLFRIEND! AFTER ALMOST 8 MONTHS OF PERFECT DATES AND EFFORTLESS MOMENTS AND AMAZING KISSES AND SO MUCH MORE, HE’S FINALLY ASKED ME TO BE HIS GIRLFRIEND!!

LMFAO okay so I got a little ahead of myself there, but I couldn’t help it!!! I’ve been dreaming about this moment for what seems like so long, and it’s finally occurred and I honestly couldn’t be happier. My face actually started aching from all the smiling I’ve been doing hehe.

Okay so to back-track – it’s been a crazy weekend of work and we’ve headed straight into the Christmas season. As of now, I basically only have 4 days off guaranteed for this month and those days off are basically solely for my exams. Today (Tuesday, November 27th), happened to be one of those days off, so I figured I’d ask Adrian to come over and hang out.

I had a whole day planned – I wanted today to be our Christmas-y day in case we didn’t really get a chance to have one moving forward. So I went ham in planning; I put up my tree for us to decorate, got hot chocolate for us to drink while we watched Elf, and even got us a gingerbread house to build together with Home Alone playing in the background. I had Christmas coming out of my ears today, LMAO.

And it was perfect – everything went exactly as I imagined it would. We decorated my tree together, blasting Christmas classics and singing along as we did so, only stopping every so often to kiss underneath the mistletoe I’d put up in my living room. After that, we sat down to watch Elf and cuddle for a while, and eventually once we’d had dinner, I made us my famous hot chocolates and we got started in on the gingerbread house.

While we were waiting for the icing to set on the walls of the house, I got cozy on his lap on the couch in my living room, and then all of a sudden, I knew. I could feel that this was finally the moment to have the conversation I’ve been waiting so long to have.

So, I looked at him cautiously and said, “can I ask you something?”

To which he replied yes, (of course). I ended up hemming and hawing and trying to get the words out and failing – that’s how terrified I was LMAO. I even said out loud, “crap I’m too scared to do this” and buried my face in his neck like an ostrich trying to hide. When I looked up again, I breathed deeply and I was like (more to myself than to him), “no, I can do this. Well-”

But. Before I could continue, he stopped me, and he was like, “I know what you’re going to say.”

I could feel my eyes widening in shock and in relief, and I was like, “you do!?!?!”

And he was like, “do you want me to say it?” and I was like, “well, what do you think I’m about to say?”

He just looked at me, knowingly, and finally said the words I’ve been dying to hear: “would you like to be my girlfriend?”

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LMFAO I couldn’t even SPEAK, I just kissed him in response. Once we paused for a second, I managed to get out “that was a yes, by the way”, before we happily resumed.

Once the kissing finally subsided, I made myself more clear; I told him that in no way was I trying to pressure him to ask, and that I was perfectly happy with the way that things were. I only wanted to ask to make sure that he saw something more with me, even if it was at a later time. If he still needed that time, that would be okay with me too.

And he confessed that he’d been meaning to ask me for quite some time, which actually took me by surprise. When I asked him why he didn’t, he explained that everything got kind of hectic – my birthday came up, then his birthday came up, and he didn’t want to ask me at either of those times. He was worried that if he’d asked on his birthday, I would have felt obligated to say yes even if I didn’t want to – he compared it to proposing on a jumbotron at a game and getting turned down, LOOOL. He’d even mentioned to his friends some time ago that he was planning on asking me to be his girlfriend. But he admitted to me that the thought of asking was rather nerve-wracking to him too, and I completely understood.

I admitted myself that all of my friends had been giving me advice too – Cory and Avery advising me to not do it on his birthday, Leila and so many others encouraging me all the while to just get it out and say how I felt and what I wanted. He laughed at that, the fact that I had to get two guys’ opinions to potentially figure out what was going on in his head. He apologized for making me wait for so long and thanked me sincerely for being so patient with him.

He told me he could see it in my eyes for awhile though, that I wanted to have this conversation. He brought up that time in the kitchen that I’d seen him just days before his birthday – we’d been sitting together quietly and I’d just looked at him, about to say it, but I backed out. But he knew. I told him that I was so glad that I had such a bad poker face, LMAO. But more than that, I was glad that it was so easy for him to read my mind, to be on the same page as me.

I promised him that I’ve been so happy with him, so incredibly happy with the way things have been unfolding, that it didn’t feel like waiting at all. We both agreed that the whole process of seeing one another has been so easy, and we also affirmed that it could continue to be this way because we worked to have it this way. He cautiously asked me if there was anything that I would like to change about us moving forward now, and I assured him that nothing has to change because I was perfectly satisfied with how we are now. I asked him the same thing, and his answer was the same.

I shyly told him that every single time he’d called me babe, I’d gotten so happy because it was a single word that denoted a potential for more than what we were. And he was so cute, he was like, “well… hello, babe.” HEHEHE.

God am I ever happy. I told him another reason that I brought it up was because I knew without a single doubt what I wanted and that I’ve known since our first date, and he told me he knew what he wanted too. He promised me that our conversation wasn’t pressuring at all, which was relieving to me. He also told me that when it came to me, he still got nervous sometimes – that he was still doing his best not to slip up. And I assured him that I liked him for him, for everything he was. And he told me that he likes me so much, and that he likes that he still gets nervous on his way to see me. It shows him that he cares a lot about this, about impressing me still after all these months.

And so… we are finally official. I’m a “girlfriend” once more. I felt this thrill of excitement during our conversation, that thrill I get when I’m about to travel or do something adventurous. It’s the thrill of the unknown, the thrill of knowing I’m about to embark on yet another journey that will no doubt change me, make me grow, make me learn, and ultimately, make me happy.

I know there’s still a lot we have to learn about one another. I know there’s still more room for these feelings to grow. But I’m looking forward to doing that alongside him as we continue to do what we’ve been doing.

I choose him. I choose my happiness, I choose this certainty, I choose the amazing sense of appreciation he has for me and everything I entail. I choose the way he makes me feel like a goddess on earth, and I choose the way he looks at me like he’s never seen anyone more beautiful. I want all of it. I’m all in, and I’m glad that he is too.

So, here we go. We’ll see what life has in store for us. I’m looking forward to every bit of it because honestly, it’s been amazing thus far.

That’s all for today! I’ve got work early tomorrow so I should probably get some shut-eye. Ah man. What a perfect day. I’m so grateful. I’m so, so, so completely thankful. I told him that it was easy for me to trust our process because I know we were meant to meet somehow, someway, and he agreed. And truly… I’m so glad we did find our way to one another.

Finally.

Love always and in every way,

Me.

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