Day 365 to Day 1 – December 31st 2018 to January 1st 2019


I’ve never had a transitory log like this before, one that goes from the last day of the year into the first of a new one!

Honestly, I didn’t get much sleep last night (and not for the reasons you think!) and I’m getting to the point that I think I’m about to start hallucinating (and not for the reasons that occurred yesterday – I spent my last day of the year doing shrooms with Adrian and some of his friends, LMAO).

Last night was… a trip, for sure. It was good at first, everything was “floopy” and “melty” for a little while until Adrian and I decided to eat more, and then his friends left and the trip took a turn down south.

Adrian had a full-on panic attack – I know it was because he was freaking out about the fact that he couldn’t seem to get control of his thoughts and actions, but he couldn’t help but take it out in other ways.

Long story short, everything ended up happening for exactly the reasons they were meant to, and I couldn’t be happier we experienced a moment like that. It ended up turning into a vulnerability that he and I haven’t quite experienced in a little while.

I intend to go into full detail about what happened, as well as talk about my resolutions for this upcoming year.

But before I go – I honestly couldn’t be prouder about how I handled last night, and it truly showed me how far I’ve come and who I’ve become in my relationships, as well as who I am and how I am in the more difficult moments. I knew the word of this year was going to be “momentum” and I can’t believe it’s already coming into play, but I’m excited about it.

I’m going to have to get back into the habit of writing every day like I used to. But I know I can, because I’ve done it before and I can do it again.

So… until tomorrow!

Happy New Year, me. This year… this year is going to hold tons of amazing adventures and experiences and I can’t wait to go through it all.

Love always,


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