I almost went to sleep without typing my log, phew! I’m glad my sudden instinct is now to think “OMG I have to write my log for today!” That’s good, that means there’s some progress on my 21 to 90 day plan of habit to lifestyle!!
So yet another incredible day today, like… it’s actually getting a little crazy (but in all the best ways). I was at school today in the midst of class when I started making a list of all the things I needed to take care of or take responsibility for, especially school related.
I’ve applied for OSAP this year and for some reason, I didn’t get it for last semester and I was actually a little worried. There was some part of me, some old wiring left that felt I was overdue for some personal disaster so I’d been putting off figuring it out for some time.
So I decided today, eh why not, let me get a handle on as much as I can today so that I can ease my mind and let go of some anxiety I’d been harbouring as of late.
After class, I headed straight to the financial aid office, and it was PACKED. But, I didn’t let it deter me – I got in line, and waited.
Within minutes, I was called up to speak to someone and I told her about all my issues with OSAP as well as my time line of application and whatnot. She took down my student number and headed to the back of the office for a few brief moments.
When she came back, she had some astounding news for me that nearly knocked me off my feet – my OSAP got approved on the spot. I’d be receiving the money to pay off the year within a few days time, not to mention a butt load of grant money that I myself get to keep.
This, in combination with my hotel stay being comp’d, means I literally do not have to worry the slightest bit about my financial situation for this month. In fact, despite having only 2 shifts a week, I’m better off than I could have ever imagined!!! I can actually get started on paying off the debts I wanted to pay off, so early into my year!!!!!
And to top it all off, when I came home, I got a government tax cheque – MORE FREE MONEY!!!!
Yesterday at work when I saw how many shifts I had this month, I thought “oh fuck, what am I going to do? Should I get another part time just to compensate for what I wouldn’t be getting this month? How am I going to afford a trip, let alone anything else?” And then the New Orleans thing happened. And then today, my OSAP got approved, my grant is coming in to me directly, AND I got a tax cheque.
I kept saying “thank you” over and over and over today as I walked away from the financial aid office. To the Universe, and you know what? To me, too. Because if I didn’t go on my gut, if I didn’t decide to be proactive and take my own life into my hands, if I didn’t believe as deeply as I do in the Law of Attraction and manifestation, I don’t know what my life would look like right now.
Instead, I’m having – quite literally – one of the absolute best weeks of my entire life.
On the bus ride home, worry crept up on me due to the old wiring; I’ve never had things be this good for this long before. I don’t ever want to live by Murphy’s Law but for a long time in my life, I used to, you know? But I breathed, I held myself a little and told myself that I deserved to be this happy. I deserved all of this. And I truly do.
This past week of my life has made me feel limitless. Like I could do anything. I’ve been watching myself carefully, doing my best to be in the audience, happy for no reason, going with the flow and trying to be present. I’ve been keeping up with my newfound routines and habits, and my discipline is inspiring motivation, for once.
What else can I manifest for myself through these strong feelings of gratitude and abundance? How far can I go? What else can I do to build and expand the extents of my reality? At this point, the possibilities are endless. Stay tuned to find out!
Hehe. Until tomorrow then!