Day 216 + 217 – August 4th & 5th, 2019

Hello!!!! Hooray, I found a moment to write! I’m celebrating every little victory like this (positive reinforcement, do your thang!)

I didn’t get a chance to write yesterday because we ended up going over to Anne’s house to hang out with Serina, whom we haven’t seen in over a year! It was actually so much fun to hang out and catch up with her, she’s still the exact same! After an 8 hour shift I worked yesterday, it was nice to relax with them and grab some bubble tea (and spill the “tea”, hehe).

I’m off today, which means I have a whole day ahead of me to get some things done. I’m glad I’m writing, and I actually updated my online blog for the first time in a while which was nice. I also intend to read more of my book, finally get started on my vision board, do my laundry, and hopefully go through my closet and get rid of old clothes. Actually, maybe I should go through my old clothes first and get rid of stuff before I do my laundry, that way I can put everything back neatly. Sounds like a plan!

Adrian’s coming back today!!!!! Although I won’t see him, it’ll be nice to know he’s back on Canadian soil with all the scary stuff that’s happening in the US at the moment.

I’m currently on Day 3 of my medication, and I’m happy to report the nausea has seemed to wear off. Yesterday I had a bit of head pressure, but I have this headache balm that helped ease the pressure right away. All in all, things seem to be going well. But, it doesn’t feel like the medication is doing what I believe it’s supposed to be doing? Apparently I seemed kind of spacey yesterday, which worried me. I don’t have any “hyperactive” tendencies, it’s more so the inattentiveness that I want to treat. I’m hoping that that’s what this medication is for, because I don’t want to be sedated, you know? I’ll discuss these concerns with my doctor when I see her next.

Anyways, I wanted to talk about my vision board!

So a while ago, I remember writing in one of my logs about what my “ideal” life would look like. So the other day, I found that log and took that excerpt and expanded on it, so that I could really figure out what I want my life to look like.

The way I see it is this – I truly believe I can manifest exactly what I want for my life. A year or two ago, when I was in the midst of my self-love journey and pouring all this amazing, beautiful energy into myself and my life, I did these exercises in the books I read about what my “ideal” partner would be like, what my “ideal” relationship would entail. I wrote down things in a general sense, but also in small details. And, I didn’t hold back. It asked for “ideal”, so I went ideal.

After I started dating Adrian, I found this paper and read what I wrote and I was shook. Literally everything I wrote on that paper came true. Even the smallest details I wrote.

The exercise asked me to write down my ideal appearance for my partner, how we’d meet, traits, prior relationship history, hobbies/interests/occupation/finance, how he treats me and others, right down to the first thing they do/say each morning.

Appearance wise? “Tall, well-dressed (I specifically wrote “no gangsta clothes”, which makes me laugh LMAO), any age between 23-30, dark hair, light eyes, intense gaze, beardy/scruffy”. Check, for all of those.

How we met? I wrote: “it’ll be fate – I’ll run into them or meet them through A SERIES OF CIRCUMSTANCES/PEOPLE THAT WERE MEANT TO HAPPEN/I WAS MEANT TO MEET.” Yeah, big ass checkmark here in this category.

For traits, I wrote: “funny, out-going, adventurous. Compassionate, kind, and caring. Independent, self-loving, confident. Spiritual, introspective, yet chill. Affectionate, and playful.” Literally check, check, and check for literally… Every. Single. One. Of. Those. Traits.

For his prior relationship history, I wrote: “is experienced – has been in long-term relationships before, understands what long-term relationships entail in order to work, has never, ever cheated or been unfaithful.” His relationship with his ex was five, FIVE years long, and it ended for many reasons that had nothing to do with cheating. (Thank god).

For hobbies/interests/occupation/finance, I wrote: “enjoys fitness, outdoors-y stuff like sports, etc. I don’t care about their job, as long as they’re doing something that they enjoy and is stable when it comes to money.” He enjoys both working out AND playing sports, thoroughly enjoys his job of working for the soccer games company he does commentary for, AND he has his full-time job during the week (stability).

For how he treats me/others, I wrote: “treats EVERYONE with kindness, compassion and respect, equivalently.” And that’s something I’ve loved about him from the start. Those tendencies have always been there, both towards me and everyone I’ve seen him interact with.

And lastly, for the first thing he does/says every morning, I wrote: “leans over for a sleepy kiss and a “good morning” (and other things I will not mention here, hehe).” Every morning we’ve woken up together since he and I have been seeing each other, he never fails to kiss me sleepily and say “good morning beautiful/my love”. Le sigh.

Every single thing I wrote, every bit of it has been brought to life in him. I don’t know how and yet I do because I genuinely believe in the power of manifestation, magic and the Universe.

If I can write my most ideal imaginings on a piece of paper for something so important as my relationship and have it all come to life and have it all come true, then why shouldn’t I imagine my most ideal life and try to work towards making it happen?!?!?!?

I’m going to write it down, breathe life into it, protect it, nurture it, and work towards in it any way and every way that I can. I have it all typed out, but for now I’m going to keep it to myself because I would like to share these intentions with the Universe first and foremost before I share it with anything else.

One day, when it all comes true, I’ll share what I wrote with whomever needs the reassurance and the faith that truly, it is possible to manifest the exact life that you imagine for yourself.

Anyways, that’s all for today! I’m going to start putting it together now, and then get started on the rest of my to-do list today.

So far, so good me! This feels amazing. REMEMBER THIS FEELING!

Love, love, love,

Me.

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