It’s 2020!!!!! TWENTY TWENTY!!!!! Holy crap. Welcome to the future much. I’m honestly so thankful I’ve made it this far. Thankful to be able to see another year, to experience another decade of life.
I have this unshakeable sense of calm and purpose today. Today I woke up and had that feeling I know so well, that feeling of “I know everything is going to be amazing.” That pure sense of faith, and complete trust in the process. I know that 2019 prepared me for everything to come in this new year. 2019 helped me to see exactly what I want and need and what I’m going to be striving for this time around.
Here are my goals, my resolutions:
Firstly – my book. My book has been calling me without fail. I need to clear the way for it. I need to clear the fear, clear the doubts I have, clear the time, clear the space. 2019 gave me some massive signs that showed me my book is needed, my message needs to be heard. It’s only that I myself need to become clear about it again, embody it as fully as I have before. And I know I will. I can feel it in my bones. How am I going to make this happen?
Well, that leads me to my next resolution: cut down on work, step back from prioritizing it as much as I have been. 2019 was wonderful and I’m so thankful that it allowed me to begin this year in abundance, in opportunity, in strength and growth, especially in my work ethic. But, it’s time to step back now. This means less hours, less time spent thinking about work, more boundaries, less saying “absolutely, sure, no problem” and more “actually no, I can’t, I have other obligations”. The time has come to let other things (more important things) move into the forefront of my life.
Such as, my next resolution: finishing my degree. This year, I get back into school (full time if I am able to). And especially no later than this summer. My goal is to complete my petition, submit it, lift my debarment, and reenrol at York in order to complete my Psychology for me. I genuinely enjoy what I learn, and now I have the means to actually focus and get through what needs to be done, thanks to completing my ADHD assessment and being able to use the accessibility services at York as a result.
Now, these are my big goals for this year. But I also have some very important personal resolutions that I would also like to fulfil. Such as:
Getting back to writing every day. I want this to be the new and improved “365”, a new decade edition. It’s time to reestablish that habit because it’s going to be important this year, especially to writing my book. 2019 passed by in a bit of a blur, but I don’t want that to be the same case for this extremely important year.
I also want to start meditating regularly once more. Even if that means 5 times a week rather than every day, it’s something. There’s nothing like the momentum of a new year to propel you into forming better habits, and I intend to make the most of this fresh start.
Also, I’d like to start back up with my consistent reading again. I want to find books that are meant for me, the same way I did in 2017. During that year, it’s as though every book I stumbled across was meant for that exact part of my journey that I was on, and it aided and fuelled my growth and learning tenfold. I want to find books that resonate with my soul, give me the chills, make me see things in ways I’ve ever seen before, teaches me to look at things in perspectives I would have never considered, while reinforcing the things I know to be true.
I would also like to start working on some hobbies, giving time to the things I know I enjoy for myself. Like painting, or short-story writing, a creative outlet that serves as both a reprieve from day to day life as well as a means to connect with myself more deeply.
Additionally (this sounds like an essay hehe), I want to do my four trips again. I know this is ambitious, but I can’t compromise on this. My soul is fed by my travels. I will do whatever I can or must to travel. It’s important to me, my dreams, who I am as a person and what I entail. I know there’s a lot of people in my life who don’t understand why I love travel as much as I do or what it does for me, but it doesn’t matter. I can’t let this go no matter what anyone says or thinks. It’s my own, my love, my heart. It doesn’t have to make sense to anyone but me.
On a more practical note though: this is the year I finally begin establishing a better financial standpoint. I have to start being more financially responsible. But this goes hand in hand with the abundance mindset I would like to cultivate in all areas of my life, not just financially. Here is where my faith needs work the most, and I intend to do my due diligence.
Back to personal matters, I would like to open myself up to the universe and decree this with all my heart: I am ready for my lifelong friendships. I know people come and go, and about 99% of the time I’m the one who’s going, but Universe hear me now: I am ready for You to illuminate to me, who is meant to be in my life for the long haul. I know what feeds my soul in terms of my friendships, what makes me happy, what challenges me but allows me to grow, what feels right and what goes with my flow. I know what or whom I’m willing to fight for and why, thanks to 2019. But I’m ready to accept your help on this one to laser focus on where I am meant to expend my energies. Thank you.
Last year, the word I chose to describe my 2019 best was the word “thankful”. This year, I want it to be same same but different: gratitude. I was thankful last year for everything I received and learned, and this year I want to practice and hone that thankfulness into a consistent gratitude. I bought a work journey to help with that – every morning, I am to write 3 things for which I am grateful for. I didn’t today, so here they are: today, I am grateful for this brand new start in the New Year. I am grateful for the fact that I began this year with the love of my life, in the ways we know best. I am grateful for my health, which allowed me the opportunity to begin a new decade without any impediments. Thank you, thank you, thank you Universe.
I don’t remember the last time I was this excited. I am SOOOOOOOOOOO excited for this year! I have this tingling feeling in my bones that this year is going to be so incredibly important, and that there will be massive shifts. I am ready, so ready, to manifest the things that are meant for me.
I can see clearly now, as my sights are set on 2020 (HEHEHE I HAD TO). This is going to be a good one. I know it.
If there’s anything else I have to add, I will do so tomorrow because I’ll be writing tomorrow and every day after that.
Let’s get it!