Day 17 + 18 – January 17th & 18th, 2020

HELLO, HELLOOOO! Guess where I’m typing this from!!! YES, my brand new laptop notebook thingy!! It’s sooooo cute and exactly as I envisioned it to be – it’s the perfect size for me, light, portable and super quick. Not to mention, it comes with google docs, which means I probably won’t have to go to the trouble of ordering any other software in order to type out my logs or work on my book! THIS IS AMAZING!!!! THANK YOU UNIVERSEEEEEE!!! 

Anyways, I’m about a half hour early to work – there’s a massive snowstorm going on right now, and I left early from Adrian’s just in case (but also because he had work too). 

I still can’t believe that we’re leaving to Aruba in less than two weeks time. TWELVE DAYS!!! And we’ll be sunning it up on one of the warmest islands in the Caribbean, gahhh. My heart is so happy, I’m honestly so thankful to travel as much as I do. With the sales and deals that I find when it comes to these trips, it makes everything so, so worth it honestly. 

Okay, I’m going to head into my shift but come break time I’ll be writing to finish this up! Hehehe, this is exactly what I wanted to be able to do. Thank you Universe, for the abundance I manifested in order to make these little personal goals of mine to come to fruition! I’m so thankful and grateful. BRB!

Well, I didn’t really end up getting to go on break to do this per se because I decided to get a coffee with some of the girls (I haven’t gone on break with anyone in months and it was about time I started hanging out with people again hehe) and since it’s dead, I decided to just whip out this little bad boy under the pretense of doing some work and type out this log, muahahah. I love this laptop so much :’) It’s honestly the perfect size for me. 

Anyways, how have I been? I haven’t done a self check-in in the longest time, not since this year began I believe! 

Well, in terms of my resolutions – I’ve been doing rather well with keeping up with my writing for the most part, so that’s good. But the meditation could definitely use some work. Instead of meditating though, sometimes I just pray. I pray for the people in my life, for myself, and I pray in gratitude for everything I have. To me, prayer is a good way to redirect and focus my thoughts to something of substance and quality, which I like. It also does make me feel meditative as well. So, it’s a work in progress, but it’s good progress at least!

I did get this notebook to start working on my book more concretely, so that’s also a great step in that direction as well! In terms of my petition – well, I’ve picked up the last of my paperwork from my doctor and I think I just have to re-do one CPS really. It’s just a matter of putting everything together and having it looked over, and then handing it in! I think I’ll make that my priority for February. Now that I have vacation on the mind, I don’t think I’ll be getting very much done until then or after the fact, hehe. 

How have I been feeling myself, personally? 

Things have been pretty great honestly! I’m doing my best to maintain my positive mindframe and practice my gratitude on a daily basis, always “choosing again” when it comes to my thoughts and trying my best to adjust to whatever challenges come my way.  

This is going to be an amazing year. I’m so looking forward to all that it has in store for me. I promise to be as disciplined as possible when it comes to being as in love with myself as humanly possible, with this world, with this life, with everything that it has to offer. 

Moving on – how has everything been in regards to my relationships? 

Well, things have been wonderful with Adrian as always. I don’t ever want to lose my butterflies, get too comfortable, take this or take him for granted. I’m so thankful for what we have, for having him in my life. This April will mark two years since our first date, and everything still feels the exact same – the passion, the affection, the adventure, the learning. In fact, it’s just grown and doubled since then it feels. 

I can’t believe that this is our third trip together! I’m so glad that he so whole-heartedly embraces my love of travel and even embarks on trips with me. I can’t imagine being in a relationship with someone who didn’t love travel and adventure as much as I do! Or being with someone who didn’t allow me to pursue that love on my own, too. I love travelling by myself, and I do promise to do at least one solo trip a year. It rejuvenates my soul in ways that I can’t even begin to explain. It’s a freedom unlike anything else. 

In terms of my friendships – I’m honestly really happy with my little circle. I have such good quality friendships, where I feel completely comfortable being myself. There’s never any pressure, and everything always feels so easy. From communication to hanging out, everything always goes with my flow, and I love it. This is exactly how I want things to be. To be able to have the kind of conversations that feed my mind and soul, as well as the minds and souls of the people who engage in them because they’re equally as interested in these topics as I am. 

Not to mention, I’ve been meeting the most incredible like-minded people through the people already in my life!!! Like hanging out at Chad at Vape Lounge, I get to meet the most chill people ever who are super down to engage in those same conversations. I’m honestly so happy and thankful. 

And it’s so great to have Radha back in my life! I know she’s still figuring things out and I’m here for her as she does, but it’s so nice to see her navigating things on her own terms too. 

Anyways! I think that’s pretty much it for me. I’m still trying to adjust to my new Vyvanse dosage – it’s a little bit stronger than I thought it would be and I keep getting nauseous here and there throughout the day. Not to mention, it really suppresses my appetite so I’ve been having a hard time eating as well. Then again, I just recently watched a documentary about how eating meat affects our bodies and man that really put me off too, LMAO. I’m slowly readjusting, but I definitely want to be a little bit more conscious about what I put into my body. I don’t think I could ever get to a point in my life that I give up meat completely. But going plant-based 3-4 days in the week could make a world of a difference for my body. 

Wow, I feel so much lighter after writing so much! I promise to myself that tonight, I will definitely meditate. Either through prayer, or through a breath-counting meditation for however long I can muster. I have to be willing to do the work if I’m going to keep up this energy and this mindframe. And I want to! I genuinely want to, for me. Because I know the difference it makes, I’ve seen it, and I’ve lived it. 

Anyways, I guess that’s about it for today. I spent a good while of this shift just writing and it was so nice to have the freedom to do this honestly, LMAO. I love when it’s dead season at work and there’s nothing else to do. I love having all this free time! It barely feels like I’ve been at work this month in comparison to how busy last month was and how much of my life it took up. 

I think this log has helped me to get used to this keyboard too, what with all the typing that I just did hehe. Honestly though, thank you again Universe. This past week, I was able to afford dying my hair blonder, getting this laptop for myself in order to start working on my book and keep up with my logs, and booking the flight tickets for both myself AND Seb! That’s amazing! 

I’m always being looked after by both myself and the Universe (along with everyone who loves and cares for me, of course) and I’m constantly being blessed, always open to the blessings that are meant for me. THANK YOU THANK YOU UNIVERSE!!! THANK YOUUUUU!

Until my next log, 

Love always and in every way possible, 

Me.

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