I just finished reading through the rest of my logs from 2017, and I’m smiling to myself now as I write this. 3 years ago, I embarked on a journey towards self-love and it changed and transformed my life completely. I discovered that magic exists in this life, I learnt more than I could have ever dreamed possible, and shaped myself into the woman I am today – a woman who is still learning.
I don’t have any book to write because it is already written. It has BEEN written, and it’s been waiting there for me all this time. It just needs to be organized. I could have it done within weeks if I genuinely wanted to… and you know what? I AM going to.
On June 1st of this year, I will have a first tentative draft of my book written.
I’m holding myself accountable to this. I know I wrote about this recently. If I don’t hold myself accountable (out of self-love), nothing will ever get done. And I really want this to get done.
What do I need to get a book published? I’d need an editor (or a couple I suppose), and a publisher. Do publishers take care of publicity/awareness or would I be responsible for that? So much to consider and I can’t believe I’m typing these words because this has been a dream of mine for so long that I don’t think I ever actually stopped to consider that this could be a reality if I did my due diligence, which I’m intending to do now.
Reading the confidence of my words, the peace, the awe, the wonder and happiness, reminds me of how far I’ve come. Reminds me how important it is for me to tell my story, in the hopes that maybe someone can relate. Reminds me that writing has always been my passion, my go-to. Writing is my art as well as my way of perceiving and understanding this world.I was given this love of writing for a reason.
I have to believe in myself so hard that I give my dreams the wings they need to fly. I need to let faith be the wind beneath them. (I cannot get anymore cheesy than this, can I? LMAO). Seriously though – I’m seeing that more and more as these days continue. Magic is real and the Universe will always find a way to relay to you the messages you’re meant to hear. The ideas you’re meant to bring to life.
You can do this, me. You can do this. You can bring this book to life the way you’ve been hoping to for so long. You can get it out there. You can have it on the shelves of Indigo the way you’ve always visualized; on the table, right there alongside the rest of “Heather’s Picks”.
Have faith have faith have faith. Then, just do it.
It’s time. I’m excited. I’m nervous, and I’m frightened, but I’m excited and I’m ready. At the end of the day, that’s what’s going to matter most. And if it’s meant to be the way that I know and hope in the deepest recesses of my soul, then the Universe will guide me along this pathway and conspire with me to bring this to life.
I guess that’s all for today! It’s late in the afternoon now and Adrian will be finishing work soon, and I’m looking forward to cuddles and Chinese food, not necessarily in that order LOL. I can’t wait to spend the rest of my life with this person, my favourite wonderful loving caring supportive person. Le sigh.
Love always and endlessly,