Aloha!!! So here I am, at the brink of the end of my very last full day here. Tomorrow evening, we leave back to Canada. It’s bittersweet – on the one hand, I hate to leave because I feel as though my finger tips just lightly skimmed the surface of an ocean that concealed a vast amount of hidden treasures. On the other, I miss my family, friends, cat and country even. I do love living in Canada.
I’ll be sad to go, but happy to return home. It’s time I get some things in order. I will not allow this trip to feel like a mere “escape” from my life in Canada – rather, I will bend and shape my life to fit what makes me happy, regardless of where I may be. I have that potential within my grasp, I just have to take the initiative to make it so.
We ended up doing the catamaran cruise today! It was so much fun – we drank authentic Hawaiian mai-tai’s as the catamaran playfully dipped and bobbed over the wild waves of the ocean. We spotted a beautiful sea turtle swimming, popping it’s little head up for air every so often. It was relaxing but also thrilling, especially when we were going against the waves.
After that, we went back to their ABC store to buy some souvenirs for our loved ones, and we got quite a bit of stuff. I can’t wait to give them out to everyone!!! I love giving away gifts.
It began to pour, but I was totally okay with that! I loved it so much, I was so happy to be experiencing what a real Hawaiian down pour felt like. I danced as I walked down the sidewalks, tilting my face up to the sky to really bask in it all.
And now, here I am lying in my bed, for one last sleep here. I think tomorrow, we’ll go for one last swim, maybe one last meal before we pack up and head out. Again, bittersweet. But ah, what a trip this has been.
I don’t think I expected it to be as growth-inducing and transformative as it was. But people told me it would be, and they were right. Because my mind and my heart was open to that growth, and I know now that it must always be, no matter where I am, in order for me to continue growing and learning all that I can.
I’m still reading my Christine Arylo book, but she and Paolo Coelho have both joined me on this trip and on my own personal journey and they have contributed to everything I’ve learned here. The Alchemist has taught me about omens, fulfilling my personal legend, never giving up on my dreams, becoming one with the wind, listening to the universal language of the world, and that everything is written. It gave my heart hope. It made my heart sing, laugh, cry and so much more. It made me realize that I must love my heart as it loves me and loves life and loves all.
Me Before We is teaching me that I must love myself wholly and completely before I can love anyone else. That I cannot change or fix anyone, that I wouldn’t want my “partner” to change for me either way because if they’re going to change, they should want to do it for themselves. It’s teaching me to stop playing the victim and to start owning my reality. It’s commanding me to remain honest with myself, in every way, and always.
And this trip, this trip has taught me that there is so much more to this life than I ever imagined possible. So much to see, to learn, to feel and to experience. It taught me to always be open to every opportunity, to remain open minded and go with the flow and to “hang loose”. It taught me to feel everything with every fibre of my being, to really live in the exact moment and to be present, rather than thinking of the past or imagining the future. And it revealed to me the exact way in which I can alleviate some, if not all, of the unrest that resides in my everyday life in Canada – through honesty with my parents, which is long overdue.
I will never forget what I learnt here. I will never forget everything I’ve done, felt, thought and seen, in each and every day that I experienced here in Hawaii. I will forever be grateful.
And with that, I bid adieu for now! I’ll write tomorrow, most likely on the plane back to Canada. Until then!